Hi everyone! I have been completely overwhelmed with the amount of hate I have received since Monday night. I absolutely HATE that I feel the need to explain myself. I am not going to blame the “edit” but I will say there are a few important details that were missing that might explain my actions. So here is my side of the story. Here we go:
BACKSTORY: I had met Nick a few times before going on Bachelor in Paradise. I ran into him about a month or so before we left for filming and we had talked about whether or not we were going to do the show. He had told me he was considering going because he was interested in getting to know Jen Saviano (also from Ben’s season & a friend of mine). He had also told the twins and Jubilee the same thing…that he was interested in Jen. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have a big BIG crush on Nick going into Paradise…but I knew how interested he was in Jen so I figured he was uninterested in me! I was pretty shocked when he asked me on a date…
Mine & Nick’s date didn’t go as well as it was portrayed on the show. It was a fine first date. We had good conversation. We kissed. But there weren’t those “sparks” like I was hoping for. Like I said, I had a crush on him before the show and had high hopes for this date. I almost felt like he was holding back because he knew he was waiting for Jen to arrive and didn’t want to lead me on. One thing that stood out to me was that he would hold my hand or kiss me…but as soon as the cameras were off he would stop or let go of my hand. Now, if someone is really into you, they’re going to show affection to you whether there are cameras on them or not. I TRULY felt like he wasn’t that into me. Then, at the rose ceremony he confirmed that. During our conversation (which they completely cut out 🤔) he told me that he had “an amazing date with Leah & wants to get to know her better”, but also an amazing time with me. He let me know he would be giving me his rose because my “maturity stood out to him” but said he wanted to get to know Leah and I BOTH better and reminded me ONCE AGAIN that he was also “very excited for Jen to arrive.” He told me he wanted to be on the same page as far as dating other people and made it CLEAR AS DAY that we were going to both explore our options. Nick didn’t do anything wrong. I appreciated his honesty with me! But this is why when Josh arrived the next morning, I didn’t hesitate to say yes to the date! I would NEVER intentionally hurt him or go on a date without talking to him first if we hadn’t had that talk the night before! Like I said before, Nick did nothing wrong! He really is an amazing guy and was nothing but honest with me! Can we just squash this?! 🙌🏻Now, onto more important things like FASHION:
The blue maxi dress I wore on my first date was by Auguste! You can pre-order it here at ResurectionClick here to purchase
The pink one piece I wore on my date with Josh is by Blue Life! It is my favorite swim suit ever. I purchased it from Resurrection also! I was saving it for a special date 😍Click here to purchase
The romper I wore on my date with Nick was by Saylor. Another one of my favorite pieces! Click here to purchase from Revolve!
If anyone has any other questions about outfits I wore on the show, comment below and I’ll answer them! Xox